Thursday, May 28, 2020

New Meme: The Gift

Essay: The Gift

There are moments recovering from trauma where the mind connects two unrelated things.

That revelation is enough to double you over.

You fall to your knees as the unleashed feelings pour over you.

It makes no difference where you are, kitchen, bedroom, or street, you are struck immobile as the mind seizes this new connection.

You barely breathe as the mind traces this new idea through your life.


Slowly other parts of the brain begin firing.
Car horns.
The asphalt under your hands.
You right yourself and continue on, clutching this new revelation tight to your chest like a gift.

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

The Perfect Nerd Date

Perfect "nerd date" with hubs last night.
Alexa - open internet. Find "Pathfinder 2e character elf"
And - it worked.
So hubs and I spent the night reading through the changes from Pathfinder 1e to 2e cuddled together on the couch.
Like I said.
Perfect nerd date.

Wednesday, May 6, 2020

Just Don't a new 100-word Essay: Defined

I like to think I am relatively 'easy going'. I've had folks tell me that I was a pleasure to work with. Huzzah. And I like to think that not many things send me into a point of anger. Of course, that could just be the CPTSD and the fact that I have virtually no emotions talking. But, hey. It's chill. I'm good. 

But then I meet folks who want to redefine my story of my life. They sit there and explain to me how my representation of my experience is 'wrong'. Yeah. I ran into one of those recently. Oh... I really wanted to 'rage post', but my interior editor stopped me. Thank goodness for that titanium trap in my mind that usually keeps me from uttering something that might later be - ahem... unfortunate. 

So, instead, I sat down and wrote this 100-word essay. I hope you enjoy. 
And, just as a tip. When someone is divulging their truth to you, do not attempt to invalidate their experience in any way. It makes us grumpy.

Sunday, May 3, 2020

Hope on the horizon?

#Cptsd folks and #PTSD folks here is a bit of news that hubs passed to me. It is from Texas A&M and was found in Discover magazine for May 2020.

The website is

Is there a new therapy, perhaps a cure coming?

I'm going to type out the whole announcement so this might be long. Hang in there. Also, this is announced as for #PTSD and not #CPTSD. So... it might not work for us, but still, if it works - I can't envision the horizons it might open.

Start quote:
Welcome to the new frontier of prosthetics.

Across the globe, millions of people suffer from the debilitating symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Research by Dr. Stephen Maren in the Emotion and Memory Systems Laboratory
@TAMU is

bringing them new hope.

Dr. Maren and his team are researching implantable "neural prosthetics" that would monitor activity in the specific area of the amygdala responsible for generating fear. Using optogenetic technology, these devices could suppress fear responses within milliseconds, essentially stopping PTSD relapses before they take hold.

Through this groundbreaking research, Dr. Maren and Texas A&M are striving to normalize brain activity in PTSD patients -and bring some normalcy back into their lives.

Innovation on every front."
End quote.

This is a long way from being a cure NOW, but go check out their website for more information.

I hope someone in our community can benefit from this research.

Friday, May 1, 2020

Another beer...

Please, hold my beer.
We'll see how this one works.

Here, hold my beer.

I'm going to try something new. We will see if this works - or not.
And if everything goes massively awry...

Here - have a cute kitten.